Hey hello… how are you… Yes, I know it has been ages since last time we spoke. There are no excuses, of course. The only thing I can say that really, when you are such good friends, time doesn’t really matter, does it? So, let’s see, where were we when I decided to disappear? Right, the situation in our world. Now one can wonder, between my last letter from March 2017 and this one, 11 months later, how much progress did we really make. But I’m not going to do that. For the simple reason that it is just too depressing. And we certainly don’t want to depress us back into another long silence, do we now?
Seriously, let’s take a small step back. My last letter, my last conversation with you, was published here almost one year ago and for that I apologize. You, who have always been my most loyal listeners. My dear friends who never complained when I was on another ranting. You who even found the time and energy to reply to me sometimes. Something that I very much appreciate. I took a break. A necessary break. I thought it would take me one – two months’ tops. It turned out to be 11. 11 Months to step back. 11 Months to put some things in order. It seems like a lifetime, but really, it’s passes just like the wink of an eye. I have spent these months focussing on everything that I believed made my life worth living. In taking a step back and looking at my life from a distance, because sometimes that is what you need to do to get a clear perspective. And even though I have to admit it isn’t always the most pleasant experience, I am very happy I did it. Because it helps you to see what is really important. It allows you to separate the wheat from the chaff. And it makes you realize that you have a lot of chaff to get rid of. Needless to say, I also came to the conclusion that even after all those years writing, editing and publishing, that particular part of my life is still counted among wheat.
So here I am. Ready for another ride. I do not know yet how its going to be. If the direction we travel in will be the same as the one we left behind 11 months ago. If the speed we take will be as fast and furious as it was before. Because even if one year seems nothing, at the end of the day it still is quite some time and it causes me to dip my toes carefully back into the deep again. But I also know I will never forget how to swim, no matter how hard the first strokes might seem. So, sit back, relax and enjoy, because we’re back where we started. –BM-
Cover photography by Nige Rorbach, featuring Drew Dixon.