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Chad Weese

I don't consider myself an extrovert but I do seem to be very people-oriented. I like people, but in doses. However, I'm also agoraphobic, suffer severe anxiety, acute panic, and chronic depression. I stay at home inside all the time alone only going to the corner store once every few days to buy necessities. I pay my bills online and all the friends I used to have all went their own ways. Roughly once every couple of months, one of the two friends I have left drop by for a couple of hours. This all happened gradually. It may have started when I was 9 but it didn't come into the forefront until I was in my early 30s.
Now I'm 44 and I live a very lonely existence. It's not about what country you live in and it also can't be blamed on one specific thing. What started out as a seemingly innocuous seed (possibly even of good intentions) grew based on environment, influence, nurturing (if any), and acceptance.
Is this a time of self, though? I don't agree that it is. The time of self was at its peak in the 1980s and early 90s. I think we're now in an era where social media and phone apps have taken the place of human interaction - an era much worse for our ability to be the social creature that we are.
Who knows, though; perhaps this will evolve into a better understanding of self as this article describes. I'm not a betting man, however.


Chad, thank you for your comment. Well said and much appreciated

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